its funny how only the ones you love and care about let you down - when you least expect it. its also strange how the smallest things they do can hurt you so bad. i was let down by two people who i really love and care about . if one day wasnt bad enough, i had to have two continuous days of hurt and abandonment.
maybe i am just too sensitive... but i hurt and i dont know why. these feelings are not new to me, but the people are. i used to think that they could never hurt me, that i was invincible when they were around. but i just proved myself wrong. i was hard and cold till one person changed the way i think and feel. now i want to go back to that state. no emotions, no unnecessary pressures and no broken heart.
whats worse is that the both of them want to just brush it away. "its okay. its all my fault. forget it" i quote verbatim. what i dont get is how they think that makes all the pain and anguish go away.
maybe its the stress of all the work finally catching up, but i would still like it people respect my time and space and not hurt me.
by the way, if any of you two read this, i still love you. nothing can change that and nothing ever will. i love you to death...